connie | couple

Monday, June 25, 2007

Nothing much to post today. Just fights & quarrels over clubbing thing. Why can't girls understand the danger of the clubs? Nothing much to say. This was the biggest quarrels we ever have. I was totally broken up. Thoughts of me leaving Neko-Chan flashed through my minds. I quickly killed the thoughts. It was impossible for me to leave her. She's my everything & my Baobei.

Settled the fight. Neko-Chan promised me a few things. I promised my things too. Is all over. Tired & shattered after such big quarrels. Waiting to be loved, doted, sayang, care & sweet by Neko-Chan. I got no more mood to continue such fights. I am dead mentally. Dread & broken-hearted. Never mind. Such quarrels will be present. We need to face it together to get stronger & loving.

After quarrels, I don't feel good. I fainted in my room. Lungs were breathing hard. Pains conquered my body. My body barely could move. The lung collapsing thoughts striked me. I was nearly dead last year due to lungs collapsing. My body shivered. Cold sweats flow out of my pores. I dare not tell my parents but suffered the pain myself. I did not tell Neko-Chan about this. She asked if I'm alright but I told her, "Yes, I am. Don't worry." I wanted to say, "Laopo, I love you!" Words just could not say out. I hung up. I regretted not telling her. The pain was too much for me to accept.

My ex-girlfriend saw the terrible pain I went through. I do not wish to see another loved girlfriend to see me in such a state. It was horrible scene for any girlfriend to accept. I lost breath of air on my bed. I felt so suffocated. After which everything went black. I woke up after almost an hour, I saw several missed calls & unread messages. I stretched my hand to grab the phone. I could not wake up at all. The pain was there. The hard of breathing was present. Finally after long struggled, I picked up the phone. I saw these messages:

1)Laogong reply. You ok? Laogong don't feel sad. Don't make me feel I'm really ill-treating you.

2)Laogong, it is painful you not replying me. Pls reply. Are you ok? I cant talk to you now. How you want me to console you? I'm attending a wedding yet we are quarrelling.

3)Laogong you don't want me is it? I treasure you. I need you. Reply me. I already promised you le.

4)Laogong you rest well? Don't faint o. Cannot faint and next time cannot don't pick up my call ok? I thought of going down your house, see you alright a not.

5)I'm sorry BuBu. =(( I Joan Lim Mei Sze Love Lim Jian Bin Takeshi.

These were the messages I saw. I was touched but how long could this last? I called her, said a few words & hung up. I went back to rest. My lungs were in pain. I could only pray that nothing going to happen to me. I don't wish to leave my Baobei Neko-Chan. Stupid right? When agitated or angry, my lungs could not breathe. I don't wish to tell parents not because I'm not scare or not worry anything will happen. Just that, I need a lot of rest & not be agitated. If not, the operation wounds will open. That's will be the end of me. I dare not tell Neko-Chan that I don't feel alright. I don't wish her to be worry. Neko-Chan, I love you. Muackies. The fights & quarrels, we settled. You promised me, you must keep hold of it. If you lie to me, everything will shatter to pieces once more. There will be hard for me to believe in you again.

My ex-girlfriend lied to me alot times. White lies or small lies, is all lies. I caught her everytime she lied. She never change till now. Hope Neko-Chan, you won't make me lost faith in you. Faith is hard to build but easily crush. I can't type longer. I need lots of rest. Remember, I love you. I won't leave you no matter what. God Bless Me!

*\ Takeshi Love Neko-Chan /*

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漆 @ 11:55 pm