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Friday, June 22, 2007

I was late for appointment with Sanso. He just came back from Aus. We were all meeting him at 11.30am at AMK HUB. They went to play Counter-Strike. I followed but played awhile I feel giddy. I was feeling very hungry. Ordered the mee, which cost $2!?! So expensive. Damm the shop! After lan, we went to Kpool! My fav.hang out!

I made a joke out of myself. I though Sanso & Kay Hwa were playing at next table. Then I saw a white ball went in. I laughed damm loudly! Opps! Guess what!?! Sanso & Kay Hwa were sitting down drinking canned drinks. WTH!?! Who the fcuk am I laughing at!?! Shocked & worried. I took a look, 2 Ah Bengs look at me! I was liked:

"OH SHIT!?! Sorry, I thought my friends were playing & the white ball went in. Then I did not know they were not playing. Sorry arxhx, brothers. Don't angry. I sincerely apologize."

I explained myself. Luckily, I myself is dressed like Ah Beng, they dare not do anything but keep laughing at my joke! Hahas... cold sweat. Phew!?! =)) Went to AMK HUB, the new Cathay Cinema was opened. We went to the arcade but was not opened! After that, took bus down to Mayflower Secondary School! Don't wish to go back! I hated the school. I suffered through it! Collected my "O" Level Certificate! It was in pale green. A nice certi. with my proudness of my marks! =))

Met many juniors & they were shocked to see me! Hell!?! I met Crystal. Received the things she owed me. She gave mi a slap too! Hahas... I deserved it though! Life is so much of a drama! The past of hers & me filled me. Thinking how much we went through, what causes this relationship to break. I said this in my heart:

"What ever mistakes I made in the past, the moments I suffered, the unhappiness I received & the scars that craved on my heart, I wont let it repeat. The hurts, tears, unhappiness, shocks, worries which I brought upon Crystal, I will never give it to Neko-Chan. I will treasure Neko-Chan, protect her, love her, dote her, sayang her, take care of her, make every moment of her life happy & sweet!"

I was feeling so mixed. I wonder somethings:

1) Will Neko-Chan ever feel it or appreciate it?
2) Will she love me at least 50% of my love?
3) Will she sacrifice her habits for me & change for me?
4) Will she forget her past & move on with me?
5) Will she think about what I think - Give every of her best to me & never bring the bad habits in past relationships to this relationship?

There were more thoughts in me. I am a thinker. I think a lot. I can foresight alot of things. Negative or positive all can be forcasted in my tiny brain cells.

After meeting Crystal, we went for BBQ nitex in MFSS!?! What a fcuking lame BBQ!?! Less than 60 or so present? I hate to see those people in my past! Secondary school life was like a hell to me! That's the darkness of my life! Now, I walked out of it. Looking back, I was terrified. Ate a Chicken Qing, 3 sticks of Satay & Bee Hoon. We climbed the wall to 2nd floor & joined another group of guys. Played hide & seek & Ice Man. 1st time in my life, playing peacefully & fearing of being caught by Discipline Masters (DM). Went home after that. Nothing much to do.

Neko-Chan was not feeling well today. She went back home in colleague's car during half day of work. I was so hurt! I couldn't accompany her nor visit her. Her mum still don't know anything about us. I wished her mum could know earlier. I wished to be there for Neko-Chan when she need me, no matter where, time or what! I do not want to have regrets when I can't be by her side when anything happen. Neko-Chan, I simply love u. U are my life now. My life revolve around yours. My soul, body & self is never a thing compare to yours! I LOVE YOU. Take Care of yourself. Anything call me!

*\ Takeshi Love Neko-Chan /*

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漆 @ 11:30 pm