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Saturday, June 30, 2007

What's on earth was going through my mind. I can not figure myself this time. I need God!?! Where are you!?! I lost touched of your presence in my life. I lost my path in your walk with me. I lost you! Mixed feelings. I don't really wish to talk that much. I not very sure what's happening. Maybe was because of what is going to happen tonight. Worries, nightmares, all sorts of thoughts are squeezing in my tiny brain cells. I am going to explode. I don't know how to carry on. My heart was filled with brokeness & worryness.

I met Dominic for pool today. Played with him. Lost 6-4. WTH!?! Lost again. Damm him sia! I was too depressed to concentrate though. After meeting him, I went off with out him. He went to meet his friend at another pool table. I reached Eunos ealier. As usual, bought drink & sat down there waiting for her. This time, another girl, waved to me & smiled. WTH!?! Again? Just because I was sitting down & drinking drinks?

Went down to Pasta Mania at Bugis with Neko-Chan. She wanted to eat Pasta with me. We chatted & she promised me a lot of things. I trusted her, hoping she make it come true & don't break her promise. Went down to "Clerk Key" (I don't know how to spell), met her friend & we chatted. Her friend was friendly. The nightmare started when Guo Yi kor kor & Fang Ting jie jie took Neko-Chan away! They were going to clubbing!?! WTH!?! I was worried. Neko-Chan's friend is leaving Singapore for Austrialla. Thus, they sending her off & met at "DOUBLE O". Only age 21 above can go in. Neko-Chan is only 20yrs old! But she managed to get it. I wanted to message Fang Ting jie jie to take care of my precious Neko-Chan. But pai seh. Later her Guo Yi kor kor see will sure laugh sia!

Now, nightmares! Neko-Chan was very wild in dancing & she could dance well. She told me about her experience there & there were Malays who danced with her & etc. Hell, made me worry. Clubbing is a dark & dangerous place. She might be touched by other guys or being targeted & dance with. The guys there were all perverts or what. Love to touch girls, to dance with girls & etc! I was so depressed that I drank 40% martell (300ml) mix with honey. Drink, drank, drunk! Drank so fast till I wanna faint! I played dota with Dominic at the same time. Dominic supposed to come over to my house & drink with me.

I could not sleep for whole night till now! Now is already saturday morning! I went watch Naruto after Dominic went to sleep. I don't wish to sleep. In case Neko-Chan faced anything, I could go find her. I don't wish anything happen to her. We quarrel a few times over this clubbing thing. She promised me to wait after 9mths when I am 18 so I can accompany her. But this time, is an event for her. I could not possibly don't allow her to go. I need to suffer all worries & stresses by myself. I love her too much. I wish to protect her! But the FCKING thing is only 18 can go such places. Damm it! Neko-Chan messaged me through out the night. Assuring me that she never let guys touch her, never betray me & etc.

I love you Neko-Chan. This post finally completed after the whole night. I waited for you to say you reached home so I can complete this post. I love you. Hope you won't let me worry next time again. I hope Fang Ting jie jie they all won't ask my Neko-Chan go clubbing till 9 mths later. Please endure with me! Wait till I am 18! You all have boyfriends who are older than you, can protect you all & pei you all at such places. But I am 17, I can't do anything to protect or pei my Neko-Chan. Thank worx! I don't wish my Neko-Chan to be lonely! I MISS YOU NEKO-CHAN!

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