connie | couple

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Neko-Chan exchanged hp with me. But my hp seemed to be spoiled. I couldn't sms nor call her. Fine with that. Just a tiny agruement last nitex. I felt so numb after so long. I felt that I could not be bothered with anything. I could not be bothered with her, my life, my study & myself. I just want to be alone in this world. Such feelings... where did it come from. Doko de kimashita ka? I'm not sure. Maybe life dragged such feelings upon me. Tired of nagging over some stupid things which Neko-Chan could not get into her head. Tired of disagreement with Neko-Chan. Tired of my characters that cause my life to be miserable. Tired of everything. Just wanted to be alone. Just wished to do nothing & hoping that someone out there would come & care for me. Hopefully that person is Neko-Chan.

After school, I dont feel like going anywhere. Doko mo ikimashita. Taikutsu desu ne. I felt so bored. I felt so meaningless to walk on. I went home, watched my Naruto's anime. It seemed that it could not burn the fire in me to watch anime. The espisodes were all boring & stupid. Nothing seem to cheer me up. Even Neko-Chan called me, I felt no joys in hearing nor I want to talk. Weird feelings. Maybe when came to a point in life, you felt to take a break & rest & not bother with anything around you. Felt asleep on my bed, thinking what's wrong with me? Hearing my beloved's voice, it seemed to have no joys. Maybe I'm tired. I closed my eyes, everything went black, silently I went into my dreams.

Neko-Chan woke me up, told me to get ready to fetch her. The heavy body of mine did not seem to be moving. I had no joys in going out. I just feel liked lying there for a long long time. Dragged myself up, I bathed, style my hair, dressed & went out. I was late due to my tired body & mind. I met Neko-Chan at City Hall. We were going to eat with her friends. Went shopping & Kinoukuniya. Read horoscope book. Understand alot of things about Neko-Chan. Met her friends, went to Italian & Japanese fusion resturant. They chatted about their life & boyfriends. I could not stop laughing because what they faced, I had once faced before. Is it everyone faced the same thing? Or is is by chance that I faced the same things?

Ate dinner, sent Neko-Chan home. In the bus, though it might be a few minutes, I hugged Neko-Chan because she felt very cold. Such a moment, let me felt that she needed me in her life. Needed me to be by her side in life, hugging her when she is cold. Such feeling sure brightened my nitex. I kissed her, hugged her & of course let her returned home. I stood downstair at the traffic light, leaning against it, waited for Neko-Chan to wave a "Good-Bye" to me. I took a cab home.

The reason that I took a cab home was because Neko-Chan could not contact me! My hp was spoiled. I wanted to get home fast to call her. Though I was feeling moody in the day, but after seeing Neko-Chan. It sure made me felt better. I did show the moody side of me, but Neko-Chan did not realise it after all. But it was alright. She was too tired to notice the change of my mood. I wondered how long this moody feeling will last. A day? 2 days? or maybe a long period? I'm tired. My mouth seemed to start closing up. Maybe soon, I be the quiet me again. Not the happy-go-lucky Takeshi. But the quiet & self-closed up Takeshi. I love you Neko-Chan. Give me sometimes to open these feelings. Maybe I'm tired of walking so much. Take a break with me, help me to wipe my sweats, serve me drinks & massage me. Soon, I will walk again with you beside me. Btw thank for saying that I look CUTE when posing at the traffic light & I got style. It sure made me laughed.

*\ Takeshi Love Neko-Chan /*

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漆 @ 11:55 pm