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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Is time to settle all things.
Is time to organise all things.
Is time to prepare all things.
Is time to change all things.
Is time to plan all things.
Is time to manage all things.

Is time for Takeshi to change.
Over the past 1 year, I did not get better. Instead, I got worst.
worst in study.
worst in r/s.
worst in jap.
worst in attitude.
worst in characters.
worst in style.
worst in everything I had done for the past 1 year.

3 more hrs for Japanese Major Exam.
A few more hours for my POA Exam.
2 days to Excel Exam.
A mth to Major Exam.

Time is running out. Is time to change before is too late.

Before my friends leave me.
Before my girlfriend leaves me.
Before my study drags me.
Before my family give up on me.
Before my inner soul abandon me.
Before everything I once owned, leaves me.

My passion for stuffs burns out.
My passion for study dies out.
My passion for making friends chill out.
My passion for everything just gone in a mist.

Japanese. Japanese. I once good in it.
Japan. Japan. My hometown, I once lived in it.
Why am I like a duck speaking in Japanese?
Why am I like a retard in studying Japanese?
Why? Nan De? Doshite? Naze?
Where is the old me who speaks Japanese fluently?
Where is the old me who writes Japanese like my mother tongue?

Why is my r/s with my girlfriend in a mess?
Why is there no flame burning in me?
Why is there no passion for love?
Why is there no hunger for care?
Why is there no thrist for her?
I gonna change this. All this will start all over again.
Wait for me, MS. All this will definitely burns again!

Why is my r/s with friends in a mess?
Why do I love to be alone?
Why do I love to stay in a corner?
Why am I speaking less to them?
Why am I outing less with them?
Sorry friends. Is time to catch up with you. The same old days.

Why am I addict to pool?
The passion for pool burns my inner.
The love for pool drown me in the river.
The miss for pool drives me crazy.
Hearing the balls, slowly rolls in the hole,
hits the deepest corner of my soul,
unleash the demon in me.
Craving for more & more.

1 hand in pool?
2 hands in pool?
Which is better?
I prefer 1 hand.
So what's the use of another hand?
Is to catch the attention of others.
To become stronger & fiercely in my attacking of balls.

The stars, the moon & the night I once loved.
Seem to disappear in tiny air.
I no longer watched the stars, the moon & enjoy the breeze of night.
I missed the old me. MS, is time to enjoy it with you.

Study is in a pile of shits.
I no longer love to study.
The old me who love challenges from studying is dead.
The old me who never give up is hiding up.
Is time to find back the old me. Is time to pick my pace.
Once a sportman, the mental of "Never give up" crave in my mind.
But guess I had not touched sports for years.
The words seem to be covered up by fun, laughters, enjoyments.

Oh well. Writing so much. How many will read?
How many will concern?
How many will respond?
Only the true ppl stays on & persist in reading.
To you is nothing, but to me, this post is my everything.
Is a declaration of everything that I once owned,
Is time to let go the funs & enjoyments.
Time to get serious and mature.

Neko-Chan is 21 soon. I am getting 18 soon.
The maturity gonna widen and lengthen.
This will definitely hurt our r/s.
In order to solve, I gonna be more mature than her.
I gonna think for future. I gonna plan for her like what I once did.
Is time to move on with her. No more distractions.

21... 18... 3 yrs of diff. The level of thinking is getting deeper.
She thinks about her job, her future, her financial & her characters.
I thinks about my Jap, my pool, my food, my fun & others.
See the diff? Is not easy for me. She is stepping into the real society.
I am still being a baby in a Poly. I thinks nothing about future or sort of.

Is time to change. Glad that I found back some long lost friends.
Rebby, Melodie, Chermain, etc...
Is time to stay by their side.

Time to plan for future. Is time to save money.
A hole in my bank. Is time to fill it up with my first pot of Gold.
The gold that will make mi richer each day.
Currently I can strike out the word, "BANKRUPT"
Because I'm getting richer now.
Debts are cleared.

No more cry baby. No point crying over spill milk.
A unlucky 2007, a better 2008, I hoped.
Say yo guys, anticipate the new Takeshi.
Pardon me if I speak to you in Jap again.
Pardon me if I get too friendly.
Pardon me if you don't get used to me.
So long guys, the old me is dead.
Time to change for a new me.
Definitely change this time.

If not, my girlfriend might leave me.
Parents give up on me.
Friends leave me.
Study will be over for me.
Ganbatte yo, Takeshi.
Ms, isshoni ganbatte yo.
Anata wa watashi no aoi tenshiyo.

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漆 @ 2:22 am