what should I do now?
my life changed 360 degree.
i keep numbing myself by doing something,
keeping myself busy.

is hard to see what my future lies ahead.
where is she, my loved?
should I give up, should I perserve?
photos flashed through,
tears rolling downs,
sorrow pour out.

her life is still the same,
go to work, go back home, watch tv, sleep.
find friends, go out, enjoy.
my life is not the same.
wake up, do my stuffs, do my stuffs, do my stuffs,
cont. to do my stuffs.
i had no mood to go out at all.

how come she is able to do so?
is it I am so weak?
or is it she is emotionless, heartless or no feelings?
this r/s how?
no one can teach me, no one can guide me.
is just let nature take course?

what should I do now?
what is she feeling, thinking or doing?
maybe she is feeling nth, thinking nth, doing nth?

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