When I'm happy listenin to the words you speaking,
you brought me an unhappy new.
That's what I will always not wish for,
But it just came true.

Been 8-9mths since then,
But it seems liked yesterday.
Now, you requested for it to occur,
Can I say no?

If I say no,
I will the bad guy.
If I say yes,
I will not be able to take it.
So what reaction do you wish me to give?

Hack care?
Attitude?
Anger?
Sadness?
Tears?
Laughters?
Of which above you wanna me express myself?

Why do you alway gives such pressure?
You asked me to relax.
You asked me to let go.
Great, I almost done it.
But you brought me back again.
I can't take it anymore.

Do you know I can't take it anymore?
Why do you alway push me up the wall?
When have I ever push you up the wall?
I'm unreasonable.
I'm sucker.
I'm bastard.
I'm asshole.
I'm idiot.
I'm nobody.

When have you spare a thought for me?
I don't know?
I not sure.
You alway never express.
What you expect me to know?
I know I have my 6th sense.
Don't abuse it please.

11 hr 30 mins count down.
My hell is waiting for me.
My exam is approaching.
But how?
I can't even focus.
I can't concentrate.
My whole mind is in whirl.
Thinking about what you request.

I studied for a week.
But it will all be down in the drain.
I have nobody to blame.
Blame myself for protecting & loving you so much.
How I wished I had not answer your call.
How I wished I had not contacted you at all.
Then I will not know this heartbreaking news.

Enough Enough. I leave.
I had enough. I vanish ok?
You will feel better off without me.
Yes you will.
Now, what I had studied I had forgotten.
Who gave a damn about it anymore.
Fail then fail. Is just another major Japanese Exam.
Fail then re-take. No big deal right?
Who cares. Hack care attitude surfaced.

I had no mood for exams nor studies.
Thank you for your request.
It makes me wanna kill myself, silence myself to death.